Doors

I live uptown
I live downtown
I live all around
I had money, and I had none
I had money, and I had none
But I never been so broke
That I couldn't leave town
I'm a Changeling
See me change
I'm a Changelin'
See me change
~The Doors, from The Changling

Sometimes the best change comes to us in the form of a sharp kick in the ass. I was laid off last week from the publishing company that I worked at for 5 1/2 years. I know the economy has taken a downturn, I know even Vanity Fair is pretty thin this month, but it was still a surprise to me. I wasn't prepared to be hitting the proverbial street that day.

I'm getting there, though! It's been one week now and I've done a lot of networking, meetings and calls. I am deep in the middle of creating a new website for myself... not just to feature my fine art anymore, but to represent the whole professional me. I think I will do it in stages, there is so much I want to do with it but I need to get the basics up so people can see what I do, so I can be marketable, and then I will keep adding to it as time allows.

One door closed suddenly last week, and now it seems to me that I'm standing in a world full of open doors. They are definitely not all for me, but they are there. Even in this economy, opportunities are everywhere! It's exciting. The trick is going to be to make the right choices without taking too much time... to keep paying the bills while holding out for the right thing.

The idea that I have the power to create my career right now, that I'm not stuck in any situation, that I'm free to go where I want and do what I want, is just sinking in. It's amazing that that kind of freedom must have always been there! Any feeling of being trapped I've ever had must have been completely false!

Change is good, change is fun... I can't wait to see how this big change unfolds!